I let you go but you’re still here

i keep letting you go every night 
only to wake up missing you 

at noon: i let you go again 
but you smirk at me and you stay

as i’m sipping my coffee, i let you go 
but as i do it, i fantasise  

about cooking with you
about laughing so hard my stomach hurts
or pulling you closer until our lips –
i let you go but i want you baby, i do

and with my last thought before i fall asleep 
i say – go

or come back