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the deal

the deal

your goodbye letter was nothing but clear life defeated you and you defeated death seems to me: perfectly fair life defeated you:i don’t believe, my beloved that you were strong until the final moment i think the anger possessed you, despair tooyou wanted more, i bet you wanted health you wanted whole years suddenly, all...

to the skies

to the skies

when i see how weak you are no longer am i strong the arms that once held me, now barely holding on when i see how fragile you are no longer am i tough i know about all of them years when life had been rough i’m sorry for my eyes time after time filled...

a last moment

a last moment

i can’t remember our final moment and we had it, sure, we had was it the one at our place? it doesn’t matter, you may think he didn’t know it was the last and neither did i well, if there’s some kind of justice in this world then it matters to me were we sitting in...

a labyrinth

a labyrinth

i wish to be like you i tell myself as i look at my coworker his teeth are blinding me sparks in his eyes are somehow painful he’s slightly older than me but you couldn’t tell the difference between him and a little girl he’s playing with i wish to be like you i tell...

goodbyes

goodbyes

today your absence is alarming how can it be that one day you were here and the next one you weren’t today your friend stopped me on street and asked me about life she would know, i thought you were always gossiping with those old ladies competing and comparing your grandchildren she would know, i...

forgetting

forgetting

you think you won’t forget your lover but darling, you will like… a white Christmas snowy days you know you can’t expect just like that deep inside you know somewhere in the future this is over you will forget him slowly you’ll wake up in the morning not being able to recall his way of...

spaces between us

spaces between us

the first time you didn’t recognise me i was prepared i knew it was to come and i know it will come again yet the time stopped flowing for a second everything flashed before my eyes blue tracksuit you used to wear, white socks a book in your handsand there by your sidea little girl...

distant places

distant places

take me back take me back to my grandfather teaching me how to play chess telling me stories and laughing so hard his face turns red take me back to my grandmother who doesn’t have dementia but has a mind smarter than our whole family combined who is so strict when we study grammar and...

about loss pt. II

about loss pt. II

it’s been a few months since you disappeared since you vanished without a warning trying to fall asleep, i always pray for the morning because then and there i think so intensely i can hardly stand it the way you left is still rewinding in my mind how you went just like that, out of...

memories

memories

my stomach twists as i imagine you with someone else i don’t want to think about you two falling asleep together, cooking or fighting her in your sweater all those things which you may still recall i can’t stand the idea that she was anyway better it’s not fair that you have already felt this...